Showing posts with label mental illness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mental illness. Show all posts
Theres no worse feeling then wanting to do something really bad, but being horribly afraid that you won't ever be able to do it.
Thats exactly how I felt about traveling abroad...
While cost was a factor, my biggest fear was that I would not be able to last though the plane ride to my destination without having a panic attack and completely losing my shit thousands of feet in the air with no escape.
But at the same time, I didn't want to let that fear hold me back.
10 years ago almost down to the day I was robbed at gun point with a group of friends after my homecoming concert in my freshman year of college (hell of a way to start a post I know).
The robbers made away with cell phones, purses, money, car keys etc but luckily we were unharmed physically.
The robbers made away with cell phones, purses, money, car keys etc but luckily we were unharmed physically.
We didn't tell many people about it and I personally tried to brush the traumatic event under the rug and go about my daily life not knowing how badly I had been effected by the whole incident.
To this day I can still remember the whole scenario so vividly as if it happened last night, I remember what I was wearing, how the gun was pointed directly at my abdomen, being frisked to make sure I wasn't hiding anything and even what the men said to us.
I thought I was going to be able to move past it all, but that one event was the catalyst that sparked my 10 year battle with Panic and Anxiety Disorder, PTSD and my struggle to find ways to overcome both without medicine.
Its being reported that Karyn Washington, the founder of "For Brown Girls" and the "Dark Skin, Red Lips" project has committed suicide at the young age of 22.
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